Regardless of the situation, no matter how hopeless the outcome may be, I will never quit, and I will never back down. I have become the wolf.

Posts tagged ‘Orange’

I had a feeling this feeling wouldn’t feel good for long.

Since last Thursday I have been infused with energy and positive thinking.  I’ve tackled the jungle in the backyard.  Joe has worked tirelessly to get the pool up and running.  The new pool furnace works so good.   It feels so good to dive in and not feel that polar chill that used to turn the outside of your lips blue.

It is so efficient that I’m kicking myself for not getting one sooner.  All that money wasted.  I’m debating on whether to have him put the solar cover on for overnight to keep the warm water warm.  Need to surf a little and get some answers.

Other than getting things accomplished around the house and yard, I have been feeling great.  I hit 120 lbs this weekend.  I haven’t thrown up in three days (except this morning).  Tons of energy, no naps, eating like a pro.

Today, not so much.  Kinda pooped out today.  It’s a good day to torch I’m thinking.

Had the most beautiful visitor both yesterday and today.  Today though he stood long enough for me to take many photo’s of him.   

He’s the first Oriole I’ve seen here in Michigan.  I’m going to have to get him his own feeder.  I don’t think the holes on the hummer feeder are big enough for him.

I’m off to take a nap.  I should go run errands, but the juice is not there.  Let’s see, torch, run errands or nap.  I think I’ll nap, then torch and save the errands for tomorrow.

I hope everyone had an incredible weekend.  It was hot enough to peel paint here, but we made do.  Threw a couple of slabs of ribs on the BBQ and let them cook low and slow for about 4.5 hours.  They were so good.

Keep positive thoughts flowing.

Made the appointment for my new tat…

Monday at 2:30 but it’s worth the wait.  I’m so glad that Joe understands.  I might be able to still get it today, the artist is going to call me when/if his schedule clears.

I found the most amazing picture that portrays everything I need.  It’s a beautiful red/yellow/orange Chinese style dragon who is shooting flames at a floating pearl.  I so can’t wait.  I need my protection.

So, did the biopsy thing this morning.

If there is a level of fear below scared shitless, I’m there. 

Apparently when the surgeon found a “really promising” gland and cut into my neck, there was a tumor attached to the gland.  Really not a good sign for someone with a cancer history.  She was able to remove it and send it in for tests, but I have to wait till Wednesday for results.  Then on Thursday I see the oncologist to find out what kind, what stage, where it’s at….  So, pins and needles till then.

The good news is that I’m sporting another rockin’ star on my neck that is about an inch long.  Right in front, above the collarbone.  I get to scare little children for another year till it starts to fade.  Yeah, yeah, quit bitching about a little scar, others have it worse than you.  I allow myself to vent once, play the pity party for 10 minutes then I pull up my big girl pants and get on with it.

Joe did agree to let me go ahead and get another tatoo.  I just need to find a local artist who does amazing dragons.  I have always had an affinity with dragons, and have felt many times to be protected by them.  I have had the same dragon in every car I’ve owned.  He’s been with me for 30 years and he watches out for me.  So, I’m getting a dragon on my left front thigh.  I have a tremendous urge to get it done quickly.  I’ve been dreaming of a dragon for the past several nights, so I know what I want it to look like.  Lots of reds and yellows and orange, really scaly and fierce.  Lots of fire and teeth.  I need a fighter.

OK, I’m off to bed.  I think I’ll take a pain med and zone.  Night all.

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