It’s been weeks. I’m up all night, then sleep all day. Or I sleep all night and nap all day. I don’t know if it’s the weather or my medications interacting or what but I can’t seem to catch enough sleep. I’m getting nothing done and am feeling the major guilt of leaving everything for everyone else to do. Day before yesterday I slept till 2:30 in the afternoon and I was back in bed by eight.
So yesterday I went to the doctors to discuss this problem, cause it is a problem. We reviewed my medications, did blood work to check for Epstein Barr and for Jaundice. Checked my white and reds and platelets. Everything is normal. My reds and whites are better than they have been in five years. My platelets are at 25 which is almost normal for a chemo patient. My meds (all twelve different kinds) checked out, although we decided to stop the Ambien. According to all that I’ve read they become less effective the longer you are on them. After six years, I’m past the point of even using them anymore. So we will see if that changes anything. I’m supposed to be more active during the day too. Yep, it’s 4 below outside and sleeping and I’m supposed to go for a walk. Not gonna happen.
Went out with mom and we both got hair cuts. Feels good not to be shaggy. But I don’t like places that don’t wash your hair first. I’m paying the same price, but they just spray it wet with ice water and cut from there. I want the shampoo, the scalp massage, the yummy smelling conditioner. I figure I’m paying for it, I want it. Last time I go to this place.
Then went to Home Depot with Joe. Picked up the paint color for the last bedroom that needs to be redone. It’s Behrs Sweet Midori 420B-5. I wish I could snap a photo from their website but they have it blocked. It’s an amazing green, I can’t wait to start painting.
Finally getting smarter about cleaning a two-story house. Up to this point, I’ve done fairly well. I have cleaning products in all the bathrooms so I don’t have to carry them from room to room. I keep supplies of towelling, vinegar, baking soda and liquid soap upstairs and down. So between yesterday and today Joe and I have gotten both a Swiffer sweeper and duster, with refills, to put in the upstairs linen closet. Now we don’t have to remember to drag them up and down stairs when we are using them. One more step on the efficiency ladder.
Put on a sweatshirt from 1996 today. It’s from a whale watching trip we took while on vacation with the kids. One of the best times.
Off for dinner. Gonna nosh on leftovers today. We’ve had take out all week so there are tons of bits to pick from. Have a wonderful night all.
Five glorious weeks since my last chemo. I’ve felt so good for the past four days and now I go back in this afternoon to get hammered again. Seriously, I wonder if he will let me go five weeks apart instead of three. I’m convinced that if I wouldn’t have been so sick with this chest cold and stomach flu I would have felt this good for much longer. I’m still coughing like an old man and there is a little (big) pain in my chest when I cough. The neurontin has kicked in and my back pain is still down to a three. I’m OK with that.
I’d forgotten how irritating a tattoo is the second day. The burning and itching. But I’m so happy with it.
Just finished a really good book, so good I had Joe read it too. It’s called ‘Barking at prozac, my diary. It’s about depression and the feelings of sinking into, being in, and climbing out of depression I hope it Joe understand what’s going on in my head when I sink into that hole for a few days.
Watched a very moving movie the other day called “Desert Flower”. The movie was based on a true story of a girls struggle in Somalia. I really want to get this book. It is a true story that is so moving and inspiring.
OK, we are off to the bank, then chemo, then Michael’s for more yarn (like I need more, you should see my basement, anyone want yarn?). I think there may even be a Home Depot trip in there somewhere.
Have a great day all. Keep up the comments please. I love hearing back from you all.
Yep, braved the heat and got tons of stuff done today. Got the pool water checked, picked up some freecycle items, stopped by a friends for a few, had lunch, went to Home Depot where I found my wall colors for the room I’m redoing (phew, I’m tired and I’m not done yet).
Took my car to the dealers because the rear hatch wouldn’t open with the remote. Apparently there is a knob on the ceiling of my vehicle that when you turn it to “off”, the rear hatch auto opener turns off. Who’d a thunk it? There are so many buttons and gadgets on this thing it would take me a year to read the manual, and by the time I finished it, I wouldn’t remember anything from the beginning anyway.
Got home and I ducked out for a little “me” time and got a pedicure, so I have purple toes again
As I was driving home, I looked at the display on my radio and couldn’t believe the temp.
Got home, put on my floppy hat and sat in the shade by the pool for about a half hour, just not thinking, not having to be anywhere, or do anything. Just chilling in the heat.
I’m off to bed. So glad the Synthroid is working. I feel 50% better than I did last week. Hopefully by next week, I will have a build up that will put me somewhere near normal (like I’ve ever been there before).
Good night all. Sweet, restful dreams.