Regardless of the situation, no matter how hopeless the outcome may be, I will never quit, and I will never back down. I have become the wolf.

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Not used to being the caregiver anymore

Wow.  All I can say is wow, and thank you to my husband for taking care of me for all these years.  It’s not easy taking care of someone recovering from surgery.  We tend to forget how easy it is to do simple things.  It’s easy to get irritated when they do the run on get me’s.  (could you get me this, and this, and this, oh and while you’re up could you)  Things like running to the bathroom, or get a glass of water are an ordeal for the recovering.  I do remember this.  I remember the impatience.  No-one does it right, or like you and you bite your tongue because you don’t want to seem ungrateful.  It’s a natural feeling.  We all get used to doing things our way and when our ability is hindered we tend to get short-tempered and needy.

Imagine me, already in that state, caring for two people, one who is just entering that state, and one who wants to be there but I won’t let her.  We have already determined that I can’t take both of them anywhere in my car.  Joe has to have the passenger seat, with it pushed all the way back.  In that position, mom can’t get into the back seat because she can’t get in the driver’s side.  That would mean getting in the vehicle using her right leg first and her joints don’t move like that anymore.  So, I have a great big car and can only get one at a time in it.

If anyone is interest, here are photo’s of Joe’s new knee.  The first one was taken on the day he came home, five days after surgery.  The second was taken today.  The massive swelling has gone down, and while no-where close to normal size it’s looking more like a knee and less like a football.

7-28-12 First day home. The swelling is massive

8-2-12 – 65 degree flexion this morning. He’s doing really well.


Tomorrow I take mom in for her first major teeth cleaning in about eight years.  She is gonna be one sore woman for a few days.  I’ve got to stock up on chicken noodle soup.  Maybe I’ll make a pot today.  That would help all of us out.  With homemade polish drop noodles.  Stomach filling food.  I’m off to forage the freezers for chicken.  My idea of hunting.

Have a great day all.

It’s chemo day!!!

I’m so thrilled I could just shit.  The good news is that I think I only have 3 more sessions after this one.  This will be my third “maintenance” dose.  I get them every three weeks for 6 months.  I’m almost done. 

I feel so good today.  My head is clear, I have energy and strength and my spirit is in full.  I’m not looking forward to after chemo and the downer that follows.  My will is strong, but the poison is stronger.

Took Oscar for a nice long walk today.  It is absolutely beautiful outside today.  The leaves are all turning, the sky is a clear blue, the air has a bit of a crisp bite to it.  There was a huge golden hawk circling the neighborhood though and he made Os kinda nervous.  I’m sure he looked like a tasty morsel to that big ole’ bird.  Had another encounter with an untrained human and his hairy counterpart today.  During our walk, a young man was leaving his house.  His Shitzu, seeing us, bolted out the door and came running at us.  He was barking and not at all happy.  Imagine his owners surprise when I looked at the dog and in my sternest voice commanded him to sit.  And he did.  Then he relaxed and became a very personable dog.  His owner was amazed.  Apparently this dog has a history of biting strangers and other dogs.  Once I got his attention though, he knew where he belonged and behaved accordingly.  Gave the young man a few tips for training his dog and for regaining command of his home.  I think I’m going to get a client out of this.

Had someone e-mail me yesterday about placing some of my jewelry in their store in Livonia.  Not sure if they want to do consignment or purchase it outright.  I’d rather not do consignment though.  Too much of a risk of loss from theft.  Her store, let her take the risk.  It won’t hurt to hear her out though.  I think I’ll call her when I’m done here.

I have just enough time to slip a nap in before chemo if I go now.  So I’m off to nap land.  I’m not proud.  I’m 50 and I love naps. 

Have a blessed day.  Sending out waves of love, hope and strength.  Please send some back.




Chemo time change

Just found out that my Chemo time has been moved to 2:00.  Please send healing thoughts and white lights and prayers.

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