Regardless of the situation, no matter how hopeless the outcome may be, I will never quit, and I will never back down. I have become the wolf.

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Another bad day, and it’s only just begun.


Lost my pain patch last night while I was sleeping.  I swear, I can put 20 lbs of surgical tape on these things and they just fall off.  So, woke up this morning in the beginnings of a full-blown withdrawal.  Anyone who has gone through medical withdrawal knows it’s not very fun.

With me, I start with the cold sweats and chills.  I can’t get warm, and I can’t stop sweating.  My feet feel like blocks of ice, but I can’t put socks on because they are sweating so much that my socks get damp in minutes then it’s worse.  My entire body feels “fluttery”, like a leaf in a breeze.  I’m shaking and my brain is muddled.  I know I slept, but not very well.  I remember waking up several times just so cold my teeth were chattering, but I changed twice cause I was soaked.

I’m off now to get something to eat and to take a nap.  A bad night wears me out more than a bad day does, every time.

Saturday afternoon and I’m still standing


The prickly sensations in my arms and legs are still there.  Luckily, the broken glass feelings in my major joints is receding.  No nausea or vomiting yet (knock wood).   Still can’t sleep.  Had to take a second Vicodin last night to help me fall asleep.  The tingling/prickly sensation gets worse when you try to be still.  Almost like low voltage electricity constantly coursing through you.

I can tell my lungs are filling up.  I’m coughing more than usual, and it’s not productive.  Hopefully when I start moving around more today it will break up.

I’m off to get breakfast and to start my day.

1:30 in the afternoon and I’m freezing.  The kind of bone chilling cold that only another chemo patient would understand.  No fevers yet, so that’s a good thing.  Just so cold.  Starting to get a bit of a headache, but don’t know if it’s from lack of sleep or just a headache.  It’s so hard to tell anymore what is a normal part of everyday and what is chemo induced.

But, Joe is taking me out to dinner and a show tonight, so I need to pick myself up and get ready.  Tomorrow I can fall on my sword, but for tonight……..

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