Regardless of the situation, no matter how hopeless the outcome may be, I will never quit, and I will never back down. I have become the wolf.

Posts tagged ‘Beads’

These are the days to remember…

Wow, the last two weeks have flown  by.  I’ve had two MRI’s, a C.T. scan, an electrical stimulus test, a series of injections into my neck and shoulders, four days in the hospital recovering from stomach flu, buried an uncle, lost a filling, got beads ready for a show on Sunday (wish me luck),  found and started addressing my Christmas cards, continued working on memorizing “the night before Christmas”.  Oh, took Oscar for his final therapy dog test (he passed).  Hows that for not doing much of anything.

Test results are still in the air.  Still testing and trying things.  It could be Carpal tunnel in my wrist, but that doesn’t explain the arm pain.  It could be nerve damage in my plenum but that doesn’t explain why only one arm.  Could be a reaction to chemo where some nerves just up and quit and I have to deal with it.  The injection they gave me last week takes 7-9 days to take effect, so, we wait and see if the feeling comes back, if the pain goes away or gets worse.  I’m to the point that I can barely type.  The good news is they are checking for cancer during all these tests and everything has come back clean.  So I’m still a NERD.

So nervous for today.  My first bead show and sale in five years.  And I’m working it.  I’m scared and a little intimidated by this.  I’m not an outgoing person by nature, especially in person.

Wish me luck today.


I’ve probably started half a dozen posts

In the past couple weeks and just haven’t finished them.  Guess the subject matter didn’t hold enough of my attention (subject = me 😦 ). I am finally starting to come out of my funk.  I’ve volunteered to participate in the Beads of Courage torch-a-thon in Brighton for next Saturday.  My scheduled time is from 2-4 p.m.  I can’t wait.  I’ve just seen a list of some of the artists that will be there and I must admit to being a bit intimidated.

I have also joined a glass guild and signed up for a bead show in October.  All of which means that I’m scheduling things for me, to do by myself, with people who share common interests.  OMG, what a concept.  I won’t know how to act.

So for those of you  who have expressed concerns about my disappearance, it wasn’t you, really, it was me.

I’m off to vacuum.  Have a wonderful day all.


Be it ever so humble…

So, last week I was seriously depressed.  Hated life, hated cancer, hated chemo.  So Joe, with his unfailing insight suggested that I contact some of my “torch friends” and see if I could take a two/three-day class somewhere (P.S.  to the man behind the curtain.  You’ve been outed my friend, and Thanks).  After not torching full-time for several years, and with the advent of Silver glass and TAG glass and beautiful murrini being made, I needed a refresher course on “How to make a bead 101”.

To my surprise and delight Ann Schermo Baldwin invited me to Virginia to play, laugh, whip me, beat me, make me make good beads. :).  I had such a blast.  And after the first day my confidence came back and watching her work is just mesmerizing.  I learned so many fun thing, and remembered so many fun things.  I truly needed this excursion to rebalance myself.  Thanks everyone that made it possible.

So, I got home and immediately went to fondle my glass and see what goodies I have that she showed me and was amazed at some of the things I’ve collected in the past couple years that I haven’t resold in my haze of meds.  I found lots of amazing silver glass and some Double Helix murrini and Double Helix rods and TAG rods and some really sweet Ventrofond that is at least six/seven years old that is layers of colors with clear.  I can’t wait to blow shards out of it.  It looks amazing.  And apparently I bought pounds of the new Effetre Handmade colors that have come out recently.  I had a box full, tucked in a corner, along with a box of Moretti 104 sheet glass.

I can’t wait till tomorrow to torch all day.  I have so many ideas going through my tiny head.  I’ll post pictures tomorrow of the beads I made with Ann and hope that my beads will continue to improve with practice.

It’s late and I’m tired.  It’s been a busy week.  Huggs to everyone. 

Blessings and goodnight.

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