Regardless of the situation, no matter how hopeless the outcome may be, I will never quit, and I will never back down. I have become the wolf.

Posts tagged ‘beads of courage’

Why do we let our fears rule?


Yesterday I was committed to go to a Beads of Courage event with a bunch of other bead makers from  a crossed  Michigan.  I had everything packed and ready to go when the old insecurities reared their ugly heads.  What if I don’t know anyone?  What if everyone is better than me?  What if I don’t find anyone to hang around with?  I swear at times like this, I feel like I’m back in elementary school.  I can actually make myself sick.  I build the stress and concerns up so much that I talk myself out of going.  I know I missed a wonderful opportunity to bond with other bead makers.  Although I did round-up 700 beads to donate, I just hurt myself by hiding out and not participating.  I was also supposed to go to a guild meeting today.  But, because I was embarrassed about not showing yesterday I didn’t go today. It’s like a snowball effect.

The only commitment that I actually kept last was taking Oscar for his first two evaluations with Therapy Dogs Inc.  We have one more eval on this coming Friday and then we will be certified for therapy dogs.  He really enjoys interacting with people, although he would be happier if I didn’t have to pick him up to see people in their beds.  He loves being cuddled, hates being picked up.

So I’m off to nap again.  When I can’t deal with life, I nap.  Hey, it works for me.

I’ve probably started half a dozen posts


In the past couple weeks and just haven’t finished them.  Guess the subject matter didn’t hold enough of my attention (subject = me 😦 ). I am finally starting to come out of my funk.  I’ve volunteered to participate in the Beads of Courage torch-a-thon in Brighton for next Saturday.  My scheduled time is from 2-4 p.m.  I can’t wait.  I’ve just seen a list of some of the artists that will be there and I must admit to being a bit intimidated.

I have also joined a glass guild and signed up for a bead show in October.  All of which means that I’m scheduling things for me, to do by myself, with people who share common interests.  OMG, what a concept.  I won’t know how to act.

So for those of you  who have expressed concerns about my disappearance, it wasn’t you, really, it was me.

I’m off to vacuum.  Have a wonderful day all.

 

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