Regardless of the situation, no matter how hopeless the outcome may be, I will never quit, and I will never back down. I have become the wolf.

It’s been so long since I’ve done chemo alone and clean that I could never tell what side effects were from radiation and what was from chemo.  Now that it’s just chemo, I can clue you in.

First night.  Can’t sleep.  My shoulders, hips, knees and elbows feel like they are full of pins and needles that just cause the most nightmarish pain.  The muscles in my arms and legs are cramping and feel like they are on the verge of falling asleep, kinda numb with the prickly/tingling.  Starting to sweat now and shake a little.  If this is the first night, I can’t wait till tomorrow.  Only by rocking continuously does the pain subside.  It’s almost as if if I can keep my blood moving in my body it never gets a chance to stop and hurt anywhere.  I did take a vicodin to try to stem the flow before it gets mind numbing, I hope it works.

No sickness yet though.  That’s a good thing.  Nothing like not vomiting on your feet first thing starts the day off with a bang.  I wonder if Joe wonders why I have two lined trash containers next to my bed.

Ok, I’m off to try to sleep again.  Wish me luck.


Comments on: "I’ve forgotten what this feels like, so I’m sharing" (3)

  1. Hope you get some sleep!

  2. Wishing you luck, Sweetie. thank you for taking the time to share. loves

  3. I’m sorry Brenda. I wish there was a way to make chemo work but not give such nasty side effects. Hugs.

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