Regardless of the situation, no matter how hopeless the outcome may be, I will never quit, and I will never back down. I have become the wolf.

I hate having this feeling but I’m glad that I’m able to recognize it upon waking and therefore able to warn my husband before he says anything.  Not anything wrong, mind you, just anything.  When I’m in this mood, it wouldn’t matter what he said, I’d snap.

I call it my “I don’t want to deal with ANYONE today” feeling.  My head aches in the back, my neck is stiff, my skin tingles like my nerve endings are on fire.  My temper is on a slow boil and it wouldn’t take much to set me off.  I do not go out in public when I feel this way.  It took awhile, but my husband finally understands, kinda, only cause he’s witnessed my explosions.  And he has seen me break in a store and come a hairsbreath away from bitch slapping a parent who either couldn’t or wouldn’t control her child.

I walked away without incident but it took almost every ounce of my self control to do it.

To put it simply.  Some days people irritate the piss out of me.  I don’t know if it’s a result of the Chemo cocktail I endured for so long, or the menapause rearing it’s ugly head, or me just not wanting to deal with people.  Whatever, I’m just glad that DH understands and let’s me be alone when I need it.  He’s a wonderful man.

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